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its so crazy how many emotions you can go through in such a short amount of time. i've been really sad, apathetic, happy, angry, and everything else...and right now i'm just kind of chill about everything. its kind of nice. california decided that the nice weather it was giving us was just too much so now its buttfucking cold and rainy. i just hope ( Read more... )

so i think i've finally gotten used to rejection. i've realized that it happens all the time to me and generally in the same way so i've just got to suck it up and deal. its not like i'm not going to be upset about it at the time, but i feel like my bounce-back time is getting way better. i'd just rather not be there when i'm getting rejected ie ( Read more... )

I think my mind is wired wrong or something. We just got back from our first league game of the season in Reno and both our teams kicked ass. Our A team won 20 to 7 and our B team won 41 to 10. I got to play the entire game which was awesome...all these things should make me happy, right? Well instead for some reason I feel like shit. I really ( Read more... )

so today i was sitting by myself in the dining hall and eating and one of the staff members there walked by, and then she walked back and started talking with me about how she liked my hair and noticed that i had been keeping it short. she commented on how it has to be cold right now, but that it had to be perfect for the summer. it just made me ( Read more... )

thursday (because yes, the weekend starts on thursday ( Read more... )

so from the 6th to the 13th we had double days, then we had a team dinner, then we played a really shitty game in the FREEZING cold, wet rainy weather in santa cruz, and then we got to watch the berkeley all blues stomp all over stanford's rugby team. school started tuesday sadly. i moved back into my dorm monday night finally and i'm really sad to ( Read more... )

Figured it was time to say something about my life so everyone can read it. Break was good. A little short, but good. I saw everone I wanted to see (I think) even if I didn't see them as much as I wanted to, I'm glad I at least got pretty much everyone in. I got to catch up on movies that I hadn't seen, and spend lots of time just chilling and ( Read more... )

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I want to be home. RIGHT NOW. just in case you were wondering. i've been pretty happy here, but this last week has been hell. for the most part even when i'm with people, i feel a little lonely. especially cause i seem to have found a lot of the people who "only make fun of the people they like" so i get made fun of a lot, which is normally fine, ( Read more... )