ok so today was good and bad and just a bit of everything. i'm in this female sexuality class and today we had a class on violations. we all thought of a time we'd been violated and we shared it with the class. stories ranged from violations of trust to physical violations to everything else possible. basically it made me mad at the world because ( Read more... )

um so i just thought i'd let you guys see a little of the ridiculous drunken night i had on friday. all i've got to say is playboy bunny easter themed rugby girls party. it was the most amazing thing ever....and here are pictures...which you shouldn't look at if you don't want to see lots of people dressed up as playboy bunnies...there are waaay ( Read more... )

So i've been thinking about life a lot lately and where i'm heading or not heading for that matter. i have no direction in life. i feel like i used to, like up until now i've always had something to work towards, to strive for, and now i just don't. i mean in middle school it was getting into a good high school, in high school it was getting into a ( Read more... )

if we're all just people and bodies what makes us attracted to one and not to another? why can't we all satisfy eachother's desires in the same way? i know it wouldn't make life as challenging or fun, but it would be easier, and you would never have a shortage of sex or attraction...actually maybe it would make life like SUPER fun cause then you'd ( Read more... )

so spring break has come to a close. its kind of sad i must say. my mom came in and we hung out a lot and went to monterey and went and were touristy and saw the aquarium and other fun things. then i came back, went grocery shopping, and went out to visit my friend who was housesitting for her mom at the beach...and all my friends were there to ( Read more... )

sooo i just got back from the first half of my spring break in canadia with my rugby team. i was super sick for the last couple of weeks so i ended up going up there and not playing at all which kind of sucked, but whatever. it was a lot of fun. and now i'm back and my moms coming up to berkeley for the rest of the week to chill with me and ( Read more... )

so in the past week i've learned a lot. i was exposed to lots of people with serious problems with their bodies. i realized i don't really have a problem with my body. its mine, it doesn't really fit how i feel inside a lot of the time, but thats ok. bodies are only bodies. they don't define us. we define ourselves. my biggest problem is not that i ( Read more... )

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so i figured since i always seem to update when i'm upset i thought i'd change it up and update when i'm happy for once. this week has been soooo good. it started off sunday with some really good conversations with people. then monday i had an amazing time in my female sexuality class - everyone was presenting body image projects and it was really ( Read more... )

i've figured out whats been wrong for the last semester and a half, and i think i need to write it down before i forget everything. ok before college i had lots of little groups of friends and they all served different purposes. here i have one group of friends who serves all purposes. before college i didn't drink, here i do. before college i ( Read more... )