"I see the picture clear now, and the fog has lifted ( Read more... )

It's over.
It's all over.
He doesn't care about me.
I feel so used.

I wanted to be mad at Ben so much last night...but I couldn't for too long. As you all know he and I have this "understanding", as he puts it, that I can see whoever I want and he can see whoever he wants. Well, the other night he was telling Megan, our mutual friend, that he wants to hook up with her. Megan is such a great friend she was telling ( Read more... )

*I want to believe that you don't actually care ( Read more... )

Ben finally told me today that he may be leaving for a few months. He's going to Kansas...but he doesn't know when. He says they will go for at least a month, but maybe as long as four. It will suck, but I can deal. I mean what can I do, right?? Even if we were together I couldn't do anything but miss him, and that's what I will do. The bastard ( Read more... )

I am so sick of hearing about the results of the election. So many people I know are pissed because Bush won. GET OVER IT!! It's done and over with...deal. I am just so glad this election is over...now the complaining needs to end.

I just got home from a wonderful drag show at Hamburger Marys in Long Beach. We went to celebrate my friend Mary's 18th b-day. She has always wanted to go to a drag show, and now she has. YAYS ( Read more... )

APRIL ( Read more... )

The other night when I was driving Ben home I was really quiet...not saying anything and when he would ask me a question I would just nod or shrug. He started getting really weirded out because...as you all know...I am never quiet. I always have something to say. Anyway, I finally talked and it made him feel better ( Read more... )

Global Personality Test Results Stability (39%) moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.
Orderliness (29%) low which suggests you are overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense too often of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.
Extraversion (67%) moderately high ( Read more... )