So I know I haven't updated in forever (and that probably won't change) but when I logged on, I saw that my last entry was from the night Jack called me and told me he had cancer. Well.. Wednesday July 22, 2009 I ran into Brian at the cafe in the hospital.. turns out Jack had taken a turn for the worse, despite a hopeful few months. He was ( Read more... )

seriously ( Read more... )

here's something quick! for 2 reasons. one i don't feel like slacking. and two, i need to let my food digest a little before i work out. but all i had was like 5 baby (cherry) tomatoes.. so that shouldn't take too long lol ( Read more... )

needless to say.. things actually ARE good! haha it's outstanding! i know ( Read more... )

it's approximately 2:38 am. and my alarm is going off at 6:15 am. granted that's for ashley to get up, but the chances of me getting more sleep, is slim. well, now that i'm still awake, maybe i'm lying. maybe i will go back to sleep ( Read more... )

To try and describe,
What I see (feel) -
When I look in your eyes
Is to try and tell
The sun,
To stop setting.
Stay high in the sky,
Never to let light leave again.

It's my favorite guilty pleasure -  
The heart stopping fireworks
And twinkling stars.
You hold the universe in your gaze.
And I'm frozen under your spell.
My world stands still,
As you stand ( Read more... )

yes yes it's been a while ( Read more... )

things are getting bad ( Read more... )

for life to stop sucking.

honestly. i know i know.. it is what you make it, and for goodness sake, i say that enough, i should follow it.

but right now things are just difficult. i don't know why.. it's just every time i turn around and think i'm over things.. something happens to smack me in the face and bring me back down to where i realize it ( Read more... )

i don't even know where to begin. i can't say i hate myself because i don't. i can say that right now i can't even look into the mirror. it kills me that one of the things i considered to be a good quality about myself.. is proving to be not so good. or more so that my ability to stick by my morals is non existant. i keep trying to give people the ( Read more... )