ok just for a little heads up. i'm reverting back to friends onlying my entries. i realized i do care.

man so i really am starting to wish i didn't have an orthodontist appointment. i rather like hiding behind my braces and looking young. however i do have one.. in two days. and if i didn't have it i would've requested off work for the entire week and stayed down here. I love it here. this is pretty much the first time, save for the tok post, that i ( Read more... )

i stopped privatizing my entries. cause i stopped caring. so donnies mom is saying she doesn't want him to go because i guess she didn't believe me that i'm driving. i didnt think i'd lie about that. I'm still baffled about last night. i really went and slept at Pat's house. and it wasn't awkward. it felt like its something i've always done. I don' ( Read more... )

i wanna say i'll love you. but i know it won't work. nothing seems to work. some days i want to take your picture adn explain to you. if i saw that face on myspace iw ould definitely do a double take and get to know you. quirks and all everyone is a wonderful person. but i'm a girl. i can't do that. i can only be a friend and pull the cliche "i'm ( Read more... )

i wish i cared as much about ib as other people. so i'm going to my aunts house. i still want someone to go with me. i get my braces off in two weeks exactly. i think i msay just miss my braces. but hten just one more mouth surgery perhaps get this confounded crew removed and then that's it. it's like i;'m losing a friend that i've been off and on ( Read more... )

my dress is gorgeous. you can't picture colors together until they are actually together. amazing. absolutely amazing. it will be done with weekend. i can't wait to put it on.

eh it's what i'm doing to her. but you know what. I don't care. I'm sick of this whole shit. but i can't be heartlessa nd be all no i can't speak to you anymore without giving you a reason. and that reason being I dont like you. I'm jsut not that mean ( Read more... )

in recent news. my mother called me a maneater. which is just another way of saying i'm a huge flirt and dont know what flirting is. yes that makes sense. alex from work is just nice to me and we share some good laughs ( Read more... )

i want some drug addiction or an eating disorder, something more noticable and not as serious as a heart condition. i wont let this affect my life though. it can't it won't i'm stronger than my heart.

so i'm really starting to love work. i mean it's nothing hard. i get paid to stand around and give kids cheap toys. but tis the people i work with. i still havent gotten up the nerve to tell them. i know courtney would be ok. but she'd tell someone then it'd spread like wildfire. i guess i'm just edgy about it cause of what's happened before. but ( Read more... )