as if i have any more reasons to be pessimistic ( Read more... )

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i hate my computer... i just updated and it didn't take it... stupid asshole computer makers ( Read more... )

the way to my heart is through coldplay and dave matthews band. if anyone wanted to know :)

how odd it feels to come back to this! i've been reading lara's for awhile, but i thought i forgot my password and then today, it magically reappeared in my head! it's amazing. well. hello everyone! missed you all a lot :) sorry so short but my brain has been switched off momentarily and i don't know when it's coming back. i'm too tired to think ( Read more... )

what the heck is wrong with me??? i seriously am such an ungrateful little snot and i would hate myself if i was anyone else. i make people feel bad for making me feel bad when really i'm the one making me feel bad. so why can't i change? because i don't know how. i swear i'm bipolar or something because no one can have this many emotions all in ( Read more... )

ever have those days when you just feel like you don't matter? that you don't make a difference in anyone's life? this is one of those days. you think you get past feelings but that never happens. i just don't want to feel alone... i'm looking for something and i just can't get it. i don't understand why lara had to change, i don't understand why ( Read more... )

my birthday was this sunday and i was incredibly happy to see that lara remembered and called me... it just made me feel like we still have that friendship, which i believe we do... some of my old friends i don't think we will ever be able to be good friends again... mostly just aquaintances. studies!

well, hopefully homecoming will still be fun without a date. this is my first year that i'm every going to not have a date... it's kinda weird. i'm kinda upset about it because tommy was 'going to ask me' according to alicia and zane, but he decided that when he was drunk he'd say yes to this girl who asked him named heather noel. i dont' know her ( Read more... )

just because you have the emotional span of a teaspoon doesn't mean we all do.