i don't really have anywhere else to turn and i usually just turn to livejournal to write, so i am. so yes i am using livejournal :) i have thought about being anorexic again. i know that it is completely obsurd and i should 'be happy with the body i have', but i'm not. i'm not happy with anything right now but my family and my close friends. if i ( Read more... )

i always wonder if i could go back and change anything, would i? i mean seriously... are there not some things in your life that you wonder how the outcome would have been different? i know that everything happens for a reason and this is not about regrets, but about curiousity. we choose a new path each day and what if you could see the what the ( Read more... )

i've never felt more alone in my life ( Read more... )

have you ever been so tired and worn out that it seems useless to even sleep at all at night? maybe i should go to the doctor and get some sleeping pills as my mother would love me to do, but i do not want to be on medication. i hate medicine and sleep isn't that important to me ( Read more... )

i know it's been forever, i've just decided that i had to come back.
not necessarily for anyone else's purposes but for my own.
i need to sleep though, even if i don't want to...

the time has come again to dream of (insert what i'm feeling)

i am happy, sounds strange to say... i always find something wrong ( Read more... )

i didn't know ( Read more... )

"stop looking at me like you think you've seen me naked"

her thoughts keep floating in my head
i can't see mine anymore

you will never realize it because of the way we are
but i do love you
more than i would admit
for if i admitted it
i would be wrong
you, he, me, she, wrong. all wrong.

something doesn't feel right
seem right
think right

you will realize too late
just like me

oh how amazing.
i feel awesome truthfully.
i've felt bad for saying it.
it will probably be jinxed now.

now that is entertainment.

stop yacking and just talk.
i knew this would happen.
why wasn't i warned?

why didn't you warn me?
because you were too busy.

i'm too busy to notice.
too busy to be nice.
to sleep.
to wonder and think.

thinking is