My brain is overwhelmed, my spirit heavy. I'm sounding pretentious and arrogant to my own ears. I just want to hide from myself, and my flaws. I fail to see my dad's motives for trying to raise me right, and I'm just angry and frustrated. I want my car to be fixed, but I'm unwilling to be a thorn in Shane's side till he fixes it. I'm not motivated ( Read more... )

I wish I could forsake emotions and rid myself of this wicked organ called heart, for then I would no longer be decieved to waste my time on things of trivial importance.

I like Tony Arata's lyrics. Which are sung by Garth Brooks. Here, read ( Read more... )

recently returned from June Mountain with Dano. It was awesome. Everything was lovely, and the slopes were beautiful. I want so badly to live there. My mom told me that if I married Dano, cause he's gonna become a forest ranger, we could live up there. haha. The powder was intense and the mountains looked so gorgeous with all that snow on them. It ( Read more... )

I got roses yesterday. 12 red ones, with baby's breath in them.

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hey all.
Thanks to "Uncle Brian" (*eyeroll*) I am successfully moving forward in my FAFSA application.
I am officially in love with romance again. I was severely bitter towards the poor fellow for the longest time, but seeing the movie Pride and Prejudice rekindled the passion for him. Now, that does not mean I wish to be romanced, but that I find ( Read more... )

I got bored and decided to update. Still in Big Bear. I'm applying for FAFSA, and meeting with the director next week. I'm really glad that's up and rolling ( Read more... )

This really reeks. OK, so I live with my dad now, and mom was supposed to have left my step dad. But apparently that was never gonna last for any extent of time. It's extremely aggravating ( Read more... )

Life is getting weird. Pray for me.

Revisited Upland today. First time in over two weeks. Hung out with Daniel, watched Zoolander before church. Went to what might be my last regen for a long time, which is sad. Eric talked about the 2nd commandment. It was awesome, as always. Then we went to Del Taco (del classic chicken burrito, no tomatoes.)And i headed back home. On the drive ( Read more... )