June- back from vacation, went to a specialist at Tripler, they did an internal ultrasound and saw a sac, went back a few days later and they saw a sac with a yolk sac, then a few days after that, with John they saw a heartbeat- at 6 weeks, it's official we are pregnant, and the baby is developing and hanging out!! Put school work on hold as we ( Read more... )

I only have 10 days to finish it though, so I have to get cracking!! 10 days to editmy thesis, write in an abstract, send it out to all of my participants, and take my dreaded comprehensive exam. Should be able to start on the thesis edits tomorrow...get it out to my participants by Friday, and do the comprehensive exam over the weekend. That gives ( Read more... )

I miss my husband so much...I'm just so not the same person when he is not around. I feel like a part of me is missing. I'm not going to say something cliche like he completes me or something, because I'm a complete person.But his energy is missing from my life. When I lay down in our bed at night I feel a warmth missing. When I scrub our dishes or ( Read more... )

So Facebook is a friend and a foe in many many ways...as we all know. (I love how I put we, when I'm sure I'm the only person who reads this) Once in a while I veer off the usual status update reads and come across someone from my past I haven't heard from in awhile. Someone who is just doing things. Traveling around the world, getting a Phd, ( Read more... )

So I'm going to update, since I'm almost 2/3 of the way through July and haven't touched June ( Read more... )

I am so depressed right now...just hit me like a ton of bricks. I thought I was just tired, and fell asleep when I got home for an hour. I woke up feeling shaky so I ate something right away- then threw that up and haven't felt like eating since. I came on the computer to try to get some work done, but ijust feel lonely, and unmotivated and sad. A ( Read more... )

So last night I woke up at 1:00 am. Not to got to the bathroom like I normally do, but just woke up for no reason, unable to go back to sleep. It could of been a mix of needing to go to the bathroom, although not the main motivation and waiting for John to call, and realizing he wasn't going to call that night. But I woke up and felt horrible, I ( Read more... )

So 8 weeks pregnant.. I really can't believe it most of the time. I just can't fathom that there is something growing inside of me. To the point it scares me that there isn't something growing inside me. There is a thing called a missed miscarriage..where women go in to hear their baby's hb and check up only to find out the baby stopped growing at ( Read more... )

So Rachel's visit to Hawaii was stressful at times, but for the most part we had a lot of fun. She tends to be a little immature and oblivious of her surroundings- this can be very frustrating for a person like me who tries so hard to be aware of my surroundings, and likes things a specific way. So anywho she came in on Thursday- we took her out ( Read more... )

Slow down, you crazy child ( Read more... )