Wow. I've never met anyone so selfish and egotistical. And the greatest problem of it all is that there is just so much self denial and lack of admitting any kind of fault at all. Whatsoever. There's always some kind of excuse. And I want nothing to do with it. Nothing at all. It's over. I'm done. I consider myself patient. But my patience was worn ( Read more... )

I'm nervous and scared. and I hate being nervous and scared. Even if it is for a good thing. But I'm still scared. Cause I don't like "What if's?" And I don't like not knowing. And I know I have an answer to my usual question and it's the answer that I have always wanted but now that I have it, I don't know what I want to do with it. Or I do. And ( Read more... )

I've always been a lucky person. I know that. And I hope I don't take it for granted too much ( Read more... )

I need to get my life together. I'm a mess. Or maybe I just don't clean up enough and leave things a mess. ie. Me=messy.

My relationship with my dad is far from a bad one. Actually it's a good one, as long as we don't talk about anything concerning my life and the decisions that I have made in it. Now let's get some facts straight, I go to school full time, I have not fallen into a life of desperate drug use and prositution, and I'd have to say that I'm pretty far ( Read more... )

With all of my intellect, confidence, naievity, and compassion, I have every intention, in my life, with what resources and power that I, myself, have, to save the World. Not just one person at a time, but by the hundreds upon hundreds. In all of us, there is great potential for good. And there is great potential for evil. It is Both that need ( Read more... )

My car. My lovely, green, keyed on the passenger side, Honda Accord car has been ( Read more... )

What a horrible week to start something fun, tiring, and consuming. I can't concentrate at all. And after all I want to do is sleep and eat and lay there. Distractions. It's horrible. We're both doing something that we don't quite regret but if we don't get our shit done then fuck. We're screwed.

ending up disappointed.

So it's the second year of college and it's almost done. Way too much has and hasn't happened. Biggest change in life - I joined a sorority and just the structure of my day has changed. I'm living in an apartment. That apparently takes up time as well. Maintenance. I got a job. That lasted about two months. (lol) Have not yet fallen in love yet, ( Read more... )