my first wedding ever being invited to and it had to be his... patrick is getting married. the love of my life thus far is getting married. lol. i sudddenly feel sick lol that seems to be a vary common feeling these days. it has been a bad month and i would like may over with...

i stopped someone from killing themself lastnight (this morning) and didn't even know it. i was talking to my ex andrew on the phone lastnight on my way home from jake's and i had just gotten off of my exit when his phone died. he sounded like he was going to kill him self (little did i know) he had been drunk everynight for the last week. sick ( Read more... )

jake's mother is dying and i don't know what to say to him. i feel like all of it is meeningless. i found out some information about testing for huntington's and found a place that will do it for about $400 rather that $600-1,500 and he says he wants to know if he has it but am i doing the wrong thing by trying to help him find a place to do it at ( Read more... )

poor jake. i can't help but think that. his mother is in the hospital and in a coma. it's not looking good but we are all holding out hope. praying for a miracle. he seems to be doing so well. if it was me i would just be one big blubbering mess. after i found out that his mom was in the hospital i called my mother just to let her know that i love ( Read more... )

it's amazing how much better telling someone what you really think can make you feel. i just told my ex what i tought about him and my bestfriend. and the reasons that i do the things i do. it's good to get my angry thoughts off of my chest. and now we can all be happy... nothing quite as nice as closure.

i didn't do any posting in your fucking journal. if i had something to say(as i am now) i would have no problems letting you know it was me. i have no doubts that ulric told you that i had been reading it though and i have. but posting in it is another story. i hope you and ulric have fun playing family today though. sending lilly off like you're ( Read more... )

so on thursday my i am driving down I75 and all of a sudden 5 lugnuts break off of my front right wheel. that sucks enough as it is. then my car gets impounded and i have to pay $150 to get it out. so i have it towed to a mechanic who says if it's just the lugnuts it'll be $70 to fix saddly that was not it and now my car will cost over $500 to fix ( Read more... )

I GOT A TATTOO TODAY!!! FROM MY NECK TO MY ASS IT'S AWESOME! MY 21ST B-DAY IS WED. HAPPY B-DAY TO ME

"Dear jon I like you too much ( Read more... )

my best friend who i love dearly is asking me for advise and i just have none to give her... the man she loves has asked her back and she is asking me what she should do. on one hand i want to tell her do what will make you happy. be with who will make you happy and let nothing else stand in your way. on the other i want to tell her to tell him to ( Read more... )