this is a long overdue entry ( Read more... )

as much as i hoped, i knew this day would come.

funny how i seem to always be right about hope.

all i can do is offer all that i have and every ounce that i am. and as far as i am concerned, you have that.

if you believe that you are 100% right. then you have to do what you must. go. but please don't look back.

ok so i have been sick ever since the day that steve and left naples. for those of you who don't know me and a bunch of friends from UNF went to stay at another one of our friend's grandma's condo on the beach in naples. it was pretty damn nice. with the after effects of the partying and me being sick i was totally lost on what day it was. you can ( Read more... )

i think i feel too much for an entry right now. i'm not sure if i have it all straight in my head. i'm just tired, tired of feeling like this, tired of worrying. tired of over analysing every action i take. i have a sick sense in my stomach that i know what is going to happen. i just don't know when. when that day comes i tell myself i saw it ( Read more... )

i want this to end. i want to sleep. i wish christmas break was here. actually i am half and half on that.

hope the silent killer.

i feel like i am missing something. something that makes me well,....me. i wish i knew what it was. now it's just like this empty thing that i have to ignore. i'm probably going to call out sick tomorrow. i need to do lots of thinking ( Read more... )

i hate feeling like i am seeking attention from this thing. but don't we all seek a little attention. i know who reads this so i only post things i want you all to read. i don't use the private entries because i don't go back and read these i feel like sharing an possibly getting feed back. so that leads to somewhat vague entries and just really ( Read more... )

there once was this boy. he was a dork when he was younger then finally grew into his own. he never had much luck with the personal life. then he met this girl who had the same goofy humor as him, like the same kind of music and was gorgeous. the boy fell in love with the girl and so did the girl with the boy. everything was great minus the ( Read more... )

i've almost been completely phased out from everything. i blame it on a very good memory. i remember som minute little details and frankly they are all gone. i never thought i was going to hear that. i might as well start to phase myself out. i feel like quoting Across Five Aprils now so i will, "is this the begining of the end, or the end of the ( Read more... )

everything seems fine. well except one thing but i have no clue what is up with that one thing anymore. i've started drinking more, not cuz i'm sad. i think it's because my mom bought me beer so it's around and i'm like why not drink it? i think it's sad when i was like i have to sober up so i can drive to this guy's house and play beer pong. oh ( Read more... )