it the end of my second night back, and so far im ok. really. im making it. i just keep telling myself that im ready and its time, and i like it. its like im using my "power" as liz bibaud would say. shes been coaching me through this ;) lolz ( Read more... )

im not ok.

and havent been for a while.

seeing its been requested that we all update, i thought id give it a shot ( Read more... )

i kinda want to clarify the whole "being miserable in college thing". because for some reason thats what everyone seems to feel that some of us are feeling because we happen to only write to in our livejournals when we are utterly depressed. but u know what i update this thing like maybe if people are lucky once a week. i fucking love college. i ( Read more... )

"ok so heres what ve learened ( Read more... )

im doing stupid things all the time now, not so much all the time but its been happening a lot. i dont think i can handle drinking three nights in a row, because by today i was complete jelly all day. and everytime i drink in a row each night i get more and more crazy. so wierd ( Read more... )

all i keep wondring is it its too much to be wanted. i know its a tueaday and i know im drunk but thats fine. u dont really care in about twnety minutes im gonna be passed out and it gonna be great. but really. how come i cant have someone. someonw that wants me and someone foesnt want to hold me right now. fuck.

i started packing a lil bit tonight and i planned my outfit for the first night back in my head and i got. SO. EXCITED. like i dont remember being that excited about anything since oh i dont know the night of my nervouse breakdown. so hopefully going back to school wont be a bust like that night was. i had only been home for like two weeks and i ( Read more... )

ok you know what
this entry was going to be sad and depressing. and about you.

but fuck you. im sick of feeling anything anymore. so fuck you.

goodbye

why does lj have to be all technically difficult on me? I NEED TO EXPRESS MY INNER ANGUSIH LIVEJOURNAL ( Read more... )