you dont really realize how alcohol affects you until u dont drink for half a weekend, and then go all out one night. you realize how much it changes you, who it turns you into, and what you become. especially when you have no idea what is going on in your life to begin with, it does not do nice things to you. seeing i was crying before i even ( Read more... )

everything has turned into one giant circle. things are good, things are ok, things are really bad, then ok then good. and then it all begins again. i dont know how u got me to parttake in this ride. and im kinda pissed actually, because it discredits my self confidence, and my legitimacy to the rest of humanity. i dont really care. i dont care ( Read more... )

i always need nights like this to tellme how fabulous i can be

thank you umassssssss

finally vacation.

for some reason the first ten days of july have been absolute hell for me for the past two summers. i dont understand why i cannot keep myself out of shit luck. the whole thing is just gay. like im not even in trouble, just the fact that it happened at all is making me reallyyyy mad. so gay. its just one thing after another lately, and i just need ( Read more... )

i dont understand how the one thing ive been wanting for so long, has been the hardest thing to get. why is that?

i got so city girl on you
i get so crazy i dont know what to do

i look alone
i get obvious
i look hard
i look obvious

i work so much
i miss the sunshine away
i sleep so little watch the stars fade into day

i get so city girl on you

no matter what tegz and saz ALWAYS KNOWS what up

i promise ill be perfect from now on.

my whole happiness is hanging on you.

and i know that that is clear cut for absolute disaster, seeing the second i decided that, you werent here anymore.

bad/poor/terrible decisions '06 begins tonight.

i cannot handle life sometimes. it is seriously getting a little out of control

oops i did it again...