miserable! once again i am unhappy in my relationship. i'm semi-happy at work. i want june-time all the time, but can hardly get a minute to spare. i just pampered myself a little though--that felt good. uughh i want my summertime. i want to be not tired after work and want to do stuff and go out. it's nice being off the weekends, but working ( Read more... )

one more final on tuesday.

then done.

stressed out

moving out with lauren i think. next to school--and if i do, it will be glorious. not that i don't love being at home, because i do. i love my family. i just can't make the drive next semester with my schedule. i've got gaps between my classes and one day i only have one class. why would i drive 45min for an hour class? i wouldn't. me and lor have ( Read more... )

i am a coward. i truly am. i string along the dirty work so that way i don't have to feel bad. i'm just making it worse in the long run. i need to straighten up and grow a fucking backbone. i'm mean to everyone--i shouldn't care. but i do. i do care. it's not like some random thing where i hate everyone. it's this one person..this person i don't ( Read more... )

i can't commit to anything. a boy, my homework, my workouts, getting a new job.
i need summer & i need my friends, badly. i need gina & tom. i need my sanity.

i do not want to go to work today either! yucky.

why do i keep crying about him? i cant think about him without crying. i miss him so much sometimes and then other times i cant stand him. i can't tell if i'm still in love. i didn't think i was, but i think i was fooling myself. why am i so broken up and crazy over him--over this? gahhh ( Read more... )

once again it's late and i'm still up. i really should be in bed. i find myself staying up too late and not waking up in enough time to do anything with my day before work/school. not that there is anything to really be doing, but i guess it's good for me to try to be productive before i start my day? i don't really know. but working second shift ( Read more... )

i want to keep up my journal like i used to.
it's been a really really long time.
i go to odu, NOT vcu.
i need a serious update.

i made my decision:


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