Wake up. Drink beer that you don't remember going into your fridge. Crank out a paper. Reflect on fun nights. Listen to a bad Eminem-The Cure mash up. Think about the Bahamas. Buy parents Xmas books. Think about buying a notebook for random free writes. Try and remember weird dreams. Do I want a relationship or not? Hmmm. I guess I need to ( Read more... )

So as I sat in a vegan co-op today listening to people talk about a variety of interesting subjects, I realized that more and more that it's becoming harder and harder for me to be interesting in much of anything. In short, I just feel really bored. I hate it. And something needs to change.

My dog died on Wednesday. I found out yesterday ( Read more... )

I feel faily good. Lots of work. Lots. I was a little annoyed at not getting EMS, but whatever. I try not to take it too personally, because I usually do. I just feel like improving the things that hurt me, to be honest. I signed up for free counseling here at Bard. I hate counseling. But its free. And even if it helps a little, then its worth it. ( Read more... )

I want to get an internship at Physicians for Human Rights over the summer in Cambridge MA. I am excited. Very much so. Now, wouldn't it be hillarious if I happened to go on to be a doctor or something like my parents always ask me about?

I just iTuned a bunch of cds of Andean Music. Oh my god.

I love this stuff. I work out to it. Relax to it. Meditate to it. It is th emost beatuful thing. My fav artists right now are Rumiljata and Tinku. Check em out. They make my day so much better. I want to go to Peru.

Suddenly I feel so very lonley. And I don't understand. Yes, I haven't been single for 2 years. I should be able to function. I don't know what the combination is, but between that and something I just socially feel unable to let go and be myself. I feel as if I can't branch together a conversation. Its difficult to just 'be myself' in front of my ( Read more... )

FRESHMEN ARE HERRRRRE

I HAVE MY OWN ROOM

IT IS GLORIOUS

I LOVE IT

YES

Last night I got to drive in a Jaguar. Like, a convertable. OMG ( Read more... )