life sucks...

alright. i made mistakes... i understand that. i said i waz sorry many times. if i could change what happened i would. its too late to change it but im tryin to make things right. i dont know what to do... i dont want to lose friendz over this and i dont wantanyone to hate me. i understand i made a big mistake. im owning up to it and im saying ( Read more... )

finaly... i had an alight weekend. went camping for a realy late birthday party thing for katie. it waz sweet! we went boating and tubbing. we had little wars on the tubes. lol. it waz fun. we hung out ate a bunch... played games, and pretty much didnt sleep. then we came home yesterday... a lot of us stayed the night at katies house tho. we had a ( Read more... )

alright... today waznt too bad... drove around and hung out with a few friends... just kinda chillin. but fuck it. im tired of bein all depressed. tired of being alone. tired of people... i dont know what to do. i realy dont. for the longest time ive cryed myself to sleep. i cant even go a day without sumthin bringing me down. im lost.....

Xmatt

well... i went to a memorial today. stephanies dad. it waz realy diferent than i expected it to be. it definatly brought people together. i talked to a lot of people i havent talked to in a long time. i guess thats a good thing that came out of it. i wish stephanie and mom the best of luck and making it through the hard times. also i wish kelsi ( Read more... )

well... it kinda sucks... i dont have the car for a while. but other than that im aloud to do whatever i want. this summer is startin to be a bit boring. not enough parties goin on lol. anyway sumone should call me if they want to hang out ever cuz im tired of bein bored.

Xmatt

wow... i feel so alone. i need to find sum1 who cars about me that i care for back in that way... i mean there are only 2 girls that i would think about dating. i just hope maybe they like me too. i just feel like i have a whole in me that needs filled but i dont want just anyone... i need one that i truely like in that way... where it could be ( Read more... )

this summer isnt all that great... to boring. there better be more coming up than this boredom. warped tour saterday! that will be fun... anyone wanna go with me? please! i dont wanna go alone.

fuck this. im tired of peoples bull shit. im tired of the backstabbing and getting talked about. what the hell have i done wrong? damn people fuck this all. im done with everyone. im moving in less than a year if posible. maybe if i get the hell away from here things will be diferent. im done writing.

Xmatt

well... i waz havin a good day the other day. went to breakfast. hung out with sum people. then went to dougs. hung out there. after that i went to best buy and circut city. it waz kool. after that i went to easton. awsome! so then decided to go back to the skate park.... then it all went downhill. "she" waz down there by her friendz car. i see her ( Read more... )