ok. if you think im gonna start writing like that last entry... sry but NO! i cant do that cuz thatz just not me. my life is in a wirl... im tryin to straiten things out. im not sure what to do anymore. but im tryin. anyway. update on what has happened. friday i went to the movies... i saw hitch. very funny movie! then spent the night at ruins. ( Read more... )

what a wonderful world. nothing could go wrong. the sky is blue. everyones happy. everything is just so perfect. i hope every day is like this. i enjoy it so much. the bright sun is out. it's so beautiful.

well... valentines day... ya, thatz today. and here i am. at home alone. woohoo. im such a fuck up i swear. well another mistake is sure to happen later so ill write then. im gone.

well... i guess its time to move on. another step in life i guess. what to do next? i have no clue but im looking for the right path. i hope i find it instead of another ugly dead end. i know ive been realy down lately cuz a lot of bad things have been happening. (other than girl problems too) but right now im guessing this is just another step. ( Read more... )

ok... sry for typing in here when sumthing bad happens... i figured this is a journal so i write about things bothering me... sorry. i didnt know i waz gonna be acused of being a "drama king." would you people rather me sit here and write like nothing bad is happening in the world at all? should i pretend that life is perfect? idk i just thought ( Read more... )

ok... well today sucked. she said that she didnt want things to be weird between us now. it is tho. i try for it not to be. but it seems as if shes tryin to aviod me more now. i hate it cuz i care so much. i had so much riding on being with her. everyone said that it waz gonna happen and i believed them... but did it? no... did everything come ( Read more... )

ok... yesterday waznt the wost day. make that today.... one thing i thought i had goin for me and it falls apart too. welcome to MY life.

ok back to the begining. friday i went to the movies with ashley, ryan, amy, roger, and sum other people. we saw hide and seek. ITZ NOT SCARY! after the movie i asked ashley out and she said "i dont know." that real got to me cuz i want to be with her. so then her and amy left and when i finaly found my brother i left. and then it waz saterday. ( Read more... )

well... i asked her out last night... i got a "i dont know." please let her say yes. i like her so much. i would do anything to be with her. please let this work out for me. all i want right now is for this to work. please... please... say yes to me.

well.. i hope things work out.. i realy want to go out with sumone but she cant go to homecoming this weekend and i have to go. i would ask her out now but i dont want anything bad to happen so i think im gonna wait till after it. i like her so much tho and i hate not holding her. i realy hope it is a good idea...to wait... i just dont want to hurt ( Read more... )