Why are my red flags not showing themselves? Why doesn't this feel weird? Why am I not running away. He's so sweet, kind, intelligent, but of course he's had years to improve his moves. Is it all a lie, am I being toyed with? Or is there some truth, or is it just in my pants ( Read more... )

I have absolutedly no desire to be in a relationship or have any type of physical companionship right now. It is both liberating but scary at the same time. I mean, the desperate nagging of wanting someone's company is bad in itself, but how normal is it to not want to be touched. People have hit on me, tried to get to know me.... no one great ( Read more... )

... just so I can get over the other one completely. I still have this stupid syndrome where I don't want him, but I don't want anyone else to have him either. It makes me feel sick when he says he is talking to someone, someone that he apparently is not interested in but is going to try it out because ultimately... he's bored. This is ridiculous ( Read more... )

I figured it out from an unlikely source. The reason, the reason why things aren't working for me. I am usually modest about myself. I don't think I am a catch of any sort although I do believe I do deserve some credibility in some aspects of my personality and maybe a little of my body... some parts. But I must say, I am mature. Too mature. I have ( Read more... )

And ten days later it was brought to my attention, I had spoken too soon. Unlikely I will even see him again. Today, no call. We were supposed to play tennis together, all I really wanted to do was say bye.

I really hope we can make it through this. Just one semester at a time.

I love you.

Why the moment I try and get rid of you out of my head, you show up infront of me ( Read more... )

So, who cares anymore really. History has taught me that I can not be happy. Lost my mother, losing my father, have lost all my friends, and current boyfriend is moving to melbourne... fat chance. So here I am alone once again. But really, who fucking cares. Trapped in this crapass town, can't go anywhere because of the father. Don't even have ( Read more... )

I still love you and you still piss me off, what a fucked up world.

I now know why I always had a problem coming to you about things. Why I could never confide in you, why I always chose the other, even when it was not the best option. Because you never except things. Nothing is ever good enough. It could always be better ( Read more... )