I'm sorry that I watch myself too carefully sometimes.
I'm sorry that other times I don't watch myself enough.
I'm sorry that I try to protect you from my horrid side so much that it seems as if I guard myself.
I'm sorry I shut myself off from you.
I'm sorry that it seems as if I don't want to get close to anyone.
I'm sorry I've been hurt so much.
I'm ( Read more... )

1. The B-List The Starting Line
2. Be My Escape Relient K
3. Bless the Broken Road Rascal Flatts
4. The Bitch Song Bowling for Soup
5. Buy Me A Rose Luther Vandross
6. Brighter Paramore
7. Bubbly Colbie Caillat
8. Bottle of Red, Bottle of Spite Houston Calls
9. Before He Cheats Carrie Underwood
10. Big Girls Don't Cry Frankie Valli and the Four Seasons

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1.

Private Investigator - cool!!

2.

Probation / Parole Officer- hahahaha

3.

Child and Youth Worker- dude. def my #1

4.

Special Education Teacher no.

5.

Elementary School Teacher yes!

6.

High School Teacher maybe!

7.

Physical Education Teacher no!

8.

Teacher Assistant what?!

9.

Social Worker yes!

10.

Driving Instructor fuck no!

11.

Art / ( Read more... )

things i learned too little too late...
...and things i knew from the beginning
_asking for respect is one thing, but saying no just to hold power is cruel and will push him away
_if he says youre beautiful kiss him.
_if you cant say "youre handsome" kiss him.
_dont be embarrassed in front of your friends, if they don't approve that youre happy you ( Read more... )

i had a dream last night we were back at the hostel, but not ( Read more... )

but i will today.
so i think ive decided to go back to DC. "think" because i need to find out what greg wants.
i know, i know. he told crystal (tell me why i had hella trouble typing her name right now!?) that he'd like to see me again, but...
its complicated.
i had an awesome last couple of days with him, he's such a sweetheart &just truly an amazing ( Read more... )

It's not like it hurts that much anyway.

There are times when I make my pain worse than it is as if my old masochistic self is longing to be rebirthed. I know that Ideserve the pain I cause myself from the things I know and rememeber, but I can't help but tell myself I do.
Realizations are not always worth the knowledge with which they were lost. ( Read more... )

started a new journal on the basis that it was all my free flowing thoughts with no disclaimers and no holding back and it still got us in a fight.
sigh.
the things i deal with. =/

1. why did you choose to go to ucr?i applied to boston college, boston university, univ. hawaii, univ. SF, SJSU, SFSU, and Irvine. the only one i didnt get into was irvine. which pissed me off like crazy. i didnt wanna go to sjsu cuz id stay at home and all my friends are still jrs/srs at evhs, so i didnt wanna see their life but not be as much a ( Read more... )

its like all of a sudden your voice goes monotone &you dont care anymore.
that sucks.

thanks.