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i haven't posted in a while.
life is scary. i am not a fan of it most of the time.
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bored.
sitting in bio class with another fucking hour to go, bored out of my mind. my project is basically done and i've nothing to do. rawr. i can't even listen to music. *cries*
lesser celandine
tightly woven into homes
where wildflowers wish to roam
heart-shaped leaves and dainty stems
conceal a quite malicious nature
native species' silent cries
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it's been awhile.
three more weeks of school, then exams. that's 16 more class meetings of every class (counting the ones today). ummmm... today i slept into my english class, so i didn't go. then i slept through french and got bitched at by my teacher. then i slept through most of conlaw, but still managed to win my case (no idea how that happened). then i slept ( Read more... ) -
I might not take my meds anymore.
Except ativan. I'm still experimenting with that. -
fuck this...
randomly crying this morning. decided to take the wellbutrin-sertraline-abilify combo platter prescribed to me. i hate meds. -
Writer's Block: Adult Onset
who cares? the drinking and smoking age should be 16, pot should be legal, the military should be universally abolished along with the fucking lottery, and people should be able to fuck whomever they want over the age of 15 as long as there's consent. people have to live their own fucking lives. adulthood doesn't exist.
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scream.
i can't do this. i am going to explode. chloe and i are gradually losing control of ourselves and are becoming more and more violent and frantic in our "actions," if you will ( Read more... ) -
wax me, mold me, heat the pins and stab them in...
random thoughts of injury, not necessarily/likely self-induced, but still... razorblades splitting sections of skin apart. standing with muscle and flesh dangling from bone, unhelpable and doomed, falling into - or out of, maybe - myself and hitting the floor... rectal skin tearing and bleeding during anal sex and the horrible, paralyzing pain that ( Read more... ) -
ground to dust and ash, crawling on all fours...
i really think i'm bipolar. my mood just fucking changes all the time. i'm fine one second, and then every little annoying thing around me makes me feel like detonating and absolutely eradicating all matter within a 100-mile radius. boom, ffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffwip, hiss, sigh, gone. silence. just a hole the size of cheshire/ ( Read more... ) -
lazily copy/pasting something that happened...
crippledxCRACKT (10:29:16 PM): ooh, guess what my mom just did
emomo13 (10:29:46 PM): wat?
crippledxCRACKT (10:30:02 PM): okay, so all the way home, she's dead silent
crippledxCRACKT (10:30:05 PM): i have no idea why
crippledxCRACKT (10:30:12 PM): i get home
crippledxCRACKT (10:30:17 PM): sit down here
crippledxCRACKT (10:30:50 PM): all of a sudden she's ( Read more... )