figures i dont update for like a year. ah, well. first year of college is over and done with, and i'm nnot quite sure how i feel about that. i dont like change, and next year is going to be very different. althought i have to learn i cant project too far into the future - i end up driving myself crazy ( Read more... )

prom is tomorrow! i am starting to get really excited. i picked up my dress from the dry cleaners today, i cant wait to put it on and look all pretty!! tomorrow i get pampered like theres no tomorrow... manicure, pedicure, makeup done, hair done, really expensive dress put on... so good. the fact that alex is excited for it too makes me even ( Read more... )

reasons today was not a good day ( Read more... )

theres so much i want to be, but i am limited by my surroundings. there is so much i expect of those around me, and only so much i get in return. this frustrates me. i feel like i am wasting the prime of my life! what i have could be so much better. and i know this sounds incredibly selfish, and i know i should be thankful for what i have in ( Read more... )

i hate being left out of things. some people really lack that common courtesy i try so hard to dish out. people suck. and this is why i want new people. new things to do, new places to go, new people to see. new everything.

i hate my boss for my summer job. seriously, she's a fucking bitch. we're having this email exchange where i was all professional and stuff, letting her know of a few conflicts before the season starts... and she gets snippy with me. i know she's busy with the baby she just had, therefore i dont pester to see her... emails are easier, since you ( Read more... )

recent lasts ( Read more... )

so tomorrow night is the concert i have been dreading / excited for since i first found out i was gonna be doing a solo piece back in... december? i dont remember. i am nervous as hell, cause i dont know how im gonna react once im onstage with everyone in the audience. its a comfort thing, and i have played this piece so many times i can do it ( Read more... )

i was thinking today about all the little things that make me happy. heres what i came up with ( Read more... )

im gonna take a moment to tell you all how pathetic my life is. i was at work tonight, and i was having a grand old time with the guy i was closing with... we were using expletives every other word and at least once every 5 minutes one of us said how much we hated club fit / hate kids / want our members to all go kill themselves. anyway, at ( Read more... )