My life has become a whirlwind. I don't know which day is which anymore. I need to stop what I'm doing. I feel like I'm throwing my life away. I dunno if I can handle this lifestyle anymore. Broke and scraping for money just for a fix.

*sigh*

Well heres an update.

Tyler and I broke up after two weeks of dating. Mostly because of me. It was just getting too awkward kissing my best friend. AND because Anthony came home for a weekend to see his Grandma. I ended up staying the night with him two out of the three nights he was home, and I broke up with Tyler the day Anthony left to go back ( Read more... )

Well, where do I start? The oh so wonderful 'Anthony' and I broke up. His ex girlfriend decided to make him her number 1 priority and reel him back in with her stupid and dirty antics. She is still causing drama, and he was stupid enough to let her tell him that we can't be friends. But yet, he still calls me 4-5 times a day. I don't understand him ( Read more... )

I am driving down to Missouri with Anthony's parents for his Graduation! 
HE PASSED HIS PT TEST! 
Yayy! 
I am so excited to see him!

Woot!

I JUST wrote this one.

He called me crying. He is not doing good at all. His mom is going to the recruiters office tomorrow to find out how to get him discharged so he can come home.

I've never seen him or heard him cry before. He was crying so hard.

I want him home now. I'm sick and tired of having to deal with the bullshit they put him through, ( Read more... )

I wrote this at like quarter after 1.

I am so excited!

I can't wait to talk to him! I can't wait to hear his voice, and hear the reassurance. UGH! It's going to be amazing. I'm trying to find things to talk about, cause last time he called me like 6 times, and we had to keep hanging up cause we didn't have anything to talk about. But he'd call me ( Read more... )

I feel shallow.
I feel alone.
I feel as though my heart is gone.
I want to cry.
I want to scream.
I want to run away to him.
I want his arms around me.
I want his hand in mine.
I want to feel the warmth of his body when we hug.
I want to taste the sweetness on his lips when we kiss.
I want his love.
I want his heart.
I want the satisfaction of knowing he's ( Read more... )

Some days I wish I could understand the human mind. I wish I could decipher every single thing he was thinking. Maybe then it would be easier for me to understand how he feels since he won't open up and tell me the truth. Yeah, he's told me he loves me, and he's joked around about getting married, but if I honestly sit down and think about it, he ( Read more... )

I just got off the phone with Anthony! EEKS! It was soooooo good to hear his voice again! God how I miss him. I'm crying now, I wasn't on the phone, but I am now lol. Happy tears though!

We talked about his P.T. test that he has to do on Tuesday. I start classes on Tuesday, and he does his P.T. test.

They get their Class A Dress uniforms on friday! ( Read more... )

Today is Sunday. And you know what that means! I get to talk to Anthony today! He gets one hour on Sunday's to use the phone, and I woke up super early, just to anticipate his phone call all day. LoL. Even though I have been anticipating it since he left on the 2nd. It's going to kill me everytime the phone rings today. I am going to jump up like I ( Read more... )