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( Most would probably walk away. )

So, I've put a finger on my greatest weakness...
I'm scared of placing myself in positions that make me vulnerable, weak, and "the lower person."
Scared of allowing my self-esteem drop even lower than it already was.
Because of that -
Suddenly I'm scared of being a relationship, being emotionally attached to anyone - even God sometimes. That idea of ( Read more... )

seriously.
seriously.
i'm lost.
i don't know what im doing.

Ainsley says ( Read more... )

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the end.

no worries
no regrets.

Sometimes I feel...
-impossible
-difficult to be understood
-unlovable
-skin-deep
-unintelligent
-distant
-narrow-minded
-too conservative
-easily influenced
-lonely
-needing reassurance
-low
-confused
-lost

Mm. I feel a number of those things right now.
God, where are you?

When you hear a song, see a piece of artwork, read an amazing novel, watch a ballet, take a picture...what do you think? Do you take it for what you see or do you imagine what the person was feeling? Think about the beauty of his or her vulnerability behind it all? The willingness to expose? The courage to be honest, truthful...? Mm.

I finally watched the video.
This is the result of my thoughts, emotions...etc. etc.

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