I hate you. I love you. I am letting you go, slowly.

I'll stop calling.

As for stacey thompson, get your ass to a phone and call me... 316-733-6100. thank you. i need some fun in my life, i'm tired of crying.

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well, 9 months in South Korea. Geez ( Read more... )

I've moved to South Korea, at Osan AB.
I've joined the U.S. Air Force.
Made my family proud. 
I know, deep down this isnt want I wanted. I kicked my ass during high school for a reason. 
College.
Unlike the other families populating Andover, my family is poor in comparison. 
I turn to my last resort.
Plan B.

October 17th 2005
I shipped off to Basic ( Read more... )

I hate the fact that I can't find one true friend. C'mon world, can't there be at least one person out there that listens to you... not just waits for their turn to talk. How hard is that? Why is everyone to self absorbed? Jesus.

Me and Mike are still together, surprisingly. Almost 3 mo. now. He irriates the hell out of me, drinking all the time ( Read more... )

why is it so hard for you to be there?

i'm fed up.

omfg.

i'm grateful. i really am.

i miss family guy.
i miss josh... even tho i hate him the majority of the time.
i miss my dad.

i cried last night while watching LOTR on tv... it was during the credits... and it wasnt even over the movie... its just... i guess i needed a really good cry... and when Enya came on singing her mellow dramatic tone... it hit me ( Read more... )

Wanting to Die
by: Anne Sexton

Since you ask, most days I cannot remember.
I walk in my clothing, unmarked by that voyage.
Then the almost unnameable lust returns.

Even then I have nothing against life.
I know well the grass blades you mention, 
the furniture you have placed under the sun.

But suicides have a special language.
Like carpenters they want to ( Read more... )

K.O.R.E.A.

is where its at.

k, not really.

but, its where i'm at.

i miss you guys.

mike comes to join me in the pacific..... in.... 5 days.

heck yeah!

"One thing is clear,
I wear a halo,
I wear a halo when you look at me,
But standing from here, you wouldn't say so
you wouldn't say so, if you were me
And I, I just wanna love you,
Oh oh I, I just wanna love you "

it seems like we met just yesterday. it seems like this is the beginning of bigger things to come. i've never had this feeling before ( Read more... )