I had it. Right there, in my hands. So close, so close I literally held it, grasped it, yearned for it and found it. And I let it slip away. I let it fall out of my hands. How stupid am I, honestly?

Well it's done now. My final attempt at salvaging something meaningful from what I worked so hard at is over, and I failed once again. No surprise there. What can I do? I lost one of my best friends and the chance to be happy, at least for a little while. Now I'm left to sit and wonder if it all really is my fault, or if the circumstances are ( Read more... )

I'm just going on a heroin binge, man. Fuck this whole trying game. I know this entry makes no sense but neither do I. Bye.

One of you is going to kill me.

The sky blistered red, shot's ring overhead ( Read more... )

Been a while since I've posted anything significant about how my actual life is going, so I figure now is as good a time as ever. I was recently offered a job in Wal-Mart's optical department as a clerk and also a volunteer position in the clinical pharmacy at East Orlando Florida Hospital. It seems the time has come that I finally have to decide ( Read more... )

HOUSE OF BLUES UPCOMING EVENTS ( Read more... )

I just got my confidence back, motherfuckers. My week went from incredibly shitty to amazingly awesome in .3 seconds. I can't believe how little that took but hey, whatever. I don't think I've ever updated my journal so many times in one week...damn I feel fruitier than usual...

My DSL keeps kicking me off online randomly for extended periods of time. Very annoying.

Why do friendships fluctuate with location? Calculus sucks, by the way.