You know sometimes you reach out a hand for help, and no one is there on the other end to grab it and lead you. I feel so lost right now. I can't sleep! I guess I was just already sad tonight, and then other things happened, which just made me frustrated even more. Any advice to help out this lonely chick?

So, last night, I could not sleep. A friend and I talked for a long while, then he left. I finally ended up falling asleep after 6 in the morning! So, then today Margaret and I were supposed to go shopping to buy Julie (the head of our department, a friend, support, and mentor) presents to make up a gift basket. After I finally woke up about 1: ( Read more... )

Okay so my day was not so great, but my night was full of laughs!!! Thank you girls so much for coming out to great ol'OC. It really meant a lot to me. Kat you are my soul mate. Unfortunately we just met and have just gotten to know each other. I wish we could hang out together and have fun more often. Even though most of our conversations ( Read more... )

So, my mom called me saying that the caller ID at home had my cell phone number on it. I told her that I didnt call , but someone used my phone, so they may of hit the speed dial. She then asked me about my cousin from Calli calling me, and I told her yeah that we made plans, and we also made plans for when I go to visit them this summer. And ( Read more... )

Well, I went home this weekend for the holiday. It was nice to be home, but busy! I go to watch my Cubbies though on Friday night. They ended up winning in 15 innings! Thank God! I also got to see a lot of my family, friends, and my neighbors! Man do I miss those kids. Their like my nieces and nephew. Jacob (who is almost 4) would not let go ( Read more... )

So, we're finally into the home stretch. Thank GOD! I get to go home this weekend (and work unfortunately), see family, the kids I babysit, and friends, and hopefully relax. Then one more week of classes, and finals yeah! Then after closing to North Carolina for a few days, then back for my painting ILT! Then SUMMER!!! Hang in there girlies, ( Read more... )

I am not feeling anything anymore. Someone told me today that I seem more free spirited. I am not sure what that means, but I think it's a good thing. The truth is I just don't care anymore. I dont care about my art, my classes, school, or what residents are doing. Don't get me wrong, I am doing what I need to be doing, and getting everything ( Read more... )

I feel like there's nothing for me to do anymore. Why am I here? I dont have anything to look forward to, and need more to my life. I hate feeling this, but this is the way I feel. I want to be with him so much, but is the timing right? I wish I had that person to cuddle with, talk to, share feelings with, and most of all be there with me, as ( Read more... )

So this weekend I had to go to MSU for a MORHA business meeting. Which I did not want to attend at all!!! The only reason I did end up going was to network to start Olivet's Residence Hall Association next fall. Kat had reason for me to go too. She has been such a help to us, I am so grateful! She was in the same position starting hers at Alma ( Read more... )

Sometimes you have to step back and take a look at yourself. A few of my coworkers and I had a meeting last night. It was good because it was constructive criticism. I wasn't hurt by what they said or did. It's just hard to realize you have to change sometimes. Being this unhappy is affecting everything. My job, my friends, my academics, ( Read more... )