Waiting for life to get better.
It should come soon.
I hate watching
Time.
Pass me by
And I
Just want to be me.
With no more
Stereotypes.
I always strive for
Acceptance
And never get any,
So now I'm
Starting over.
New friends
Building better relationships
With old friends.

I'm done hating myself. I am who I am.

Isn't it interesting how much things can change over the course of a few years. I have gone through friends ridiculously,, I don't have a real best friend. I thought I did but well I guess I was wrong. I hate being the person everyone is friends with for convenience. I have so many "convenient" friends. They all have their best friends and I'm just ( Read more... )

What is love anyways ( Read more... )

OMG!!!! so California in 2 days! can you say excited.  GAH! and nervous I always friggen screw up my solos when i'm on a microphone, but I can do them when i'm by myself or with friends. AHHHH!!!!! so i'm nervous about screwing up in front of everyone in disneyland. djfhvlujsvgrcw8veb i still can't believe we're going to perform in disney GAHHHHHHH ( Read more... )

YAY!
so i'm now wicked excited about show chior for the FIRST time in the history of illusion we Didn't get a bronze AND we also placed which is amaaaaazing yay.
I was kinda pissed that I never  get to ride on the same bus as Josh coming home from these thing because that's one of the things i was really looking forward to during this season AND i ( Read more... )

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
I don't understand somethings most of the time, but right now there's one thing that really confuses me...
like if someone is sick. I mean REALLY sick why do they insist on doing something really  strenuous. ARG! i mean really.
I HATE when you're kept from a secret that will eventually be told or it will come ( Read more... )

Alright so I always manage to get the wrong end of the story, I freak out, then fond out what really was meant, and then I apologize. I hate that cycle it gets reeaaaaallllllllyyyyy old. Well other than that i had the best time when i went out with Josh, Meghan, Tony, Ralphie, and Chris. We was Night at the museum and it was pretty good I give it a ( Read more... )

OH MAN!!!! so its almost christmas and IM SOOO EXCITED.! this vacatin im going to try to make the best ive had in forever but i bet i'll end up staying home and doing nothing lol but o well. today is me and josh's 10 months but he has to go to work =( o well we'll make up with that on tuesday. I have no idea how im going to manage tuesday, i'm ( Read more... )

WOW!!! so everything now a days is either amazing, terrible, or so confusing it makes the world spin and what was once a simple conversation turns into a whirl pool of new mixed emotions and feelings of forshadowing regret and oncoming trouble ( Read more... )

YAY so today for some reason wasnt bad at all like a lot of other people. maybe its because i stayed clear of any drama going on. I dont have a D in any of my classes so far i am SOOOO excited i raised all my grades up i just hav to worry about my history final which is tomorrow ( Read more... )