theres a lot to say.

but im too overwhelmed to speak.

• Joshua M. ________, 21, __________, Oct. 23, aggravated unlicensed operation.

hahaha. HAHAHAA. yea, thats my ex boyfriend. hahahaha you got a ticket!

only i didnt realize he was that much older than me. eep.

either way older or way younger, what the hell is that shit?

meeeeeeh. okay back to taking notes in class.

okay, so im a chickenshit.

so maybe im thinking that i wont say anything.

but i know i will.. someday. but for now im all content just. being.

im exhausted.

night.

how much this bothers me. im trying not to cry right now.

he's dead.

meaning. not breathing, thinking, no heart beat, no blood pulsing, no chemical reactions, no. life.

im going to go paint now.

baby, i come undone.

this kid that graduated from my school a while ago died. he was 21. okay, so i wasnt friends with the kid, and he sorta creeped me out. but i was reading the obituaries and i almost cried. cuz. i mean. he was middleaged at 10 and 1/2. its so fucked. its really bothering me ( Read more... )

school is the main problem here.

so i talked to my guidance counselor and we're thinking..
1. GED (although all of us are a little wary of this one since i only have 1 more english class, PIG, and economics to go..)
2. online courses
3. uhhhhhhhhh.. yea

so we'll see. i dont know. i just want to be able to get into a college when im ready.

i know this wont work.

but does anyone not living in the upstate ny area have a couch i could crash on for a week or two?

reason # 14351458 why i dont like my life right now

my mother is a fucking guilttripping mindfucking bitch.

i fucking loathe this place.