what does it take to grow? one preaches of rocks and stagnation but he himself is at rooted seemingly forever in his own mind. unable to break though the barriers the he has built in his fear filled head... and heart. what are these things,probably illusion, that fester in his soul. unable to be rid of the virus. it seems to have clamped its green ( Read more... )

what the fuck is the point of life without growth.
a rock is stagnant, doomed to erode and eventually disappear.

so i am starting to plan a trip to follow dionisia. and it looks like i am going to be going to olympia national park to get lost for a while. i will be going from the 9th of august until the 18th. ill be flying instead of driving to save time as well .i am very much looking forward to this trip. i have never done solo- backpacking before so this ( Read more... )

break my head open so that i may release the hate and frustration. insecurity, confusion.

kill me in the head. let me live.

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so much has changed.
so much has stayed the same.
love lost.
self lost.
control lost.
sleep it off, though
in the morning all is the same.
to strive to be a better person,
not better than the next,
but better than you were yesterday.
i think that is a profound thing.
an endlessly difficult thing.

So it appears that i have not moved away ( Read more... )

choice regret fear lie repeat.....

so here i sit on a saturday evening, not in buffalo, not out somewhere, and not in the best of spirits. you ever just wish that you could really decide what is good for you? i have thought in the past a number of times that i knew what was good for me, sometimes i was right and sometimes wrong, but i have been having some doubt again as of late to ( Read more... )

i think i just had a dream.... but in case anyone is missing a thumb, im sorry but gimme a call and tell me what happened.