i fuckin hate everyone here.

i just wanted to tell you in my own damn words
that i fuckin hate you.. and i hope it hurts.
maybe it will kill you inside, like each day does me
or you'll feel all the suffering and finally see

im not fuckin happy here, i dont want to fuckin stay
theres too much going on, i wont last another day
if you even cared.. you ( Read more... )

:(

i hate the way they spit out their words
they dont even realize each one hurts
like a knife to the back, a silent attack
or a bat to the face, left to feel like a disgrace

maybe when the rain falls again
everyone will understand
what its like to be
under pressure, like me
no shooting star will save us now
its like time has stopped somehow
but if ( Read more... )

can anyone tell me what im talking about in this?
because i have no idea,
i was just rambling on. it confuses me.

when the world takes you down
dont let it spin you around
or shove you flat on the ground

no, you must control yourself
get ahold of yourself
you can do it, no one else

even in your darkest hour
you must maintain power
when the lights ( Read more... )

im really stressed out right now..

the pressure is making me weak
i wanna be beautiful, thin, and sleek
someone people admire and adore
to see me walk down the street and
not ignore me at all.
to have someone stare
because they like what they see
not look away
because they pity me
to be the girl of everyone's dreams
no one can calm my screams
im ( Read more... )

what if I died tonight.
would you notice my teary eyes?
would you even say goodbye?

tell me how you feel right now.
does the thought of me make you frown?
will we ever be the same?
way before the days i fucked up..
before i came here and got stuck.
oh its messed me up so bad.
i feel like im going mad, insane.
its like theres no way to cover this pain.
i make ( Read more... )

i need help.
if only you knew half of what i go thru each day.
if only you could understand how i feel, this way.
in so much pain, i cant complain..
i have to take this, make this into strength.
its time to face the facts.. im fat.
i need to lose what i have, before I
bring things in that will only make it worse.
im just cursed with this ugly, this blubber ( Read more... )

i havnt had the time to write anything yet..
so heres something from May 20th ..
its one of my faves that ive wrote so far this year.

if you were to pass me down the street
you wouldnt recognize me
wouldnt take a second glimpse
to remember these lips you've kissed

just walk on by without a sound
dont even notice my lonely frown
but im stronger than you ( Read more... )

Oh gosh. today was totally cool.
compared to what my days have been like lately.. but im not sure why.
i mean, i went to drivers ed.. i had to drive today..
and i didnt lose any points! Eric lost 20.
so mayb i feel good for doing better than mr. perfect.
blahh. but thts kinda pathetic to say. i hate eric tho.
i love kyle!
but thts all i have to say ( Read more... )

so, i wrote this after i found out what kyle did, and yea..

so if what you said is so true..
then why am i still talking to you?
why do i still feel the same love?
i guess you know you fucked up.
and i hope you know its not gonna be easy,
dont just think you can turn around and please me.
but what the hell were you thinking then?
so much for you being just ( Read more... )

well, my [ sweet 16 ] fuckin sucked.
i was miserable all day ; it had to be that day people told me all the bad shit.
like my parents finally telling me that i wasnt visiting akron on the 10th.
because i guess theres no real "reason" to go visit
the people that i love and miss so much.
and then, they totally dis my idea of me moving back,
or driving ( Read more... )