it's raining again. I never knew how much the weather governs my emotions. It hasnt rained in a while, and its like this feeling of relief... no idea of what i am relieved of... just a general feeling. odd ( Read more... )

I've been in this almost euphoric state. Like im floating through my life. I've let go of the wheel i've been gripping so tightly that my knuckles bled. I dont want you to think its this numb feeling its not at all. It's quite the opposite. I feel everything with more sensitivity than usual... i just dont fucking care. Its given me the chance ( Read more... )

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I got a job at the Olive Garden today. I am the oldest busser in the restaurant. Score... that makes me feel accomplished in life. This should be interesting. The phrase "like a ninja" was used quite often. Ninjas are awesome and all, but my ass is not by ANY means ninja-esque. Those who deal with me on a regular basis know of my tendency to ( Read more... )

So tonight... was intense ( Read more... )

so yeah... ya wanna know how bad it hurts???...
take a knife
stab yourself in the throat
cut down to your sternum and pull the knife to one side
revealing a gaping wound.
throw rock salt in the wound with the empty hand
and pray to god you dont pass out.

too late.

So i am back to school and things have quickly deteriorated from the pile of shit they were before. I CANT FUCKING TELL YOU HOW PISSED I AM ABOUT THE NEW ORLEANS DISASTER!! I FUCKING HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT OUR GOVERNMENT. If it were anywhere else.... Vegas, Miami, New York.. we would pull trillions out of our assholes and slap a big ol bandaid ( Read more... )

so i'm officially taking a vacation. Fuck work. Fuck being up to my neck in bills. Fuck the fact that i'm 1000 dollars in debt. Fuck the fact that i dont have a car. I've reached that bottom level where i just dont fucking care and i have realized i need a real vacation. None of this one and a 1/2 day shit. So i went to VA this weekend with ( Read more... )