Dear Livejournal ( Read more... )

Im sorry to hear the cohort has fallen into pieces.

either way I love you girls.

At home I have many livejournals written out full of emotion and chaos over sporadic times in the past few months. but I'll save us all the drama and do a simple update ( Read more... )

I have a new job and I saw dave last week, everything is momentarily perfect. Ill update asap

where to begin? oh I know...the beginning probably ( Read more... )

Shane took me to the movies saturday night. He was too cute he opened the car door, paid for me, offered his coat. I'm too independent for all of that but it was a nice change. He grabbed my hand and held it the whole movie. I felt like a nervous teenager. I knew he wanted to kiss me, but I wasn't feeling it...not yet ( Read more... )

I think I'm on to something here...

By always worrying about dave or matt I was able to put myself on the backburner. But now its just me...I have to worry about me. I have to deal with me. Scary business.

Now if I could only learn how to cry again

Last night was the best sleep I have had in weeks. I woke up and strangely missed matt who was on the other side of the bed. I rolled over and curled into his warm back. Safe. That's how he makes me feel. He's home to me, a different sort than dave, not bad different...just different ( Read more... )

I've been doing a lot of self analysis, never a good idea. I realized I have these fake relationships with boys because either a. I don't want to be in love b. I don't want to get fucked over or c.there is something about me that makes the male species not want to love me ( Read more... )

Everything is upsetting me even stupid shit. I need to relax.

"Breathe in breathe out. Move on"