i have a headache and im tired. Im so sick of alan being away from me. The cat is super pissing me off tonight..
nothing is going my way.
I need to find a job.. im bored without one.
it sucks just sitting in my apartment all alone day after day.
my life blows right now.
:(

my new dog hayden is fantastic!

just re read a bunch of entries from before. WOW... damn... I have changed alot! In a good way. Finally im focused on something. Im kinda sitting here in shock at how fucked up i used to be.
Alright. Im tired. heading to bed so i can get up early and fold a crap ton of laundry. Goodnight. <3

im going to be done finals tomorrow!!!!!!!  i cant wait.  super smiley. 
I cant wait to go to NH for christmas and find somewhere for alan and I to live.  :) 
okay.  this is lame.  gotta study.  lata

im pumped to start my last semester of school.  cant wait ( Read more... )

one more week and the terrible roomie situation is over. thank the lord
So. alan and i have been talking and he wants me to move in with him.. We basically already live together but i jsut dont know if im ready for that move and then to break the news the rents. oh man.  ha
im glad school is over with.
today was suupperr stressful at work.  However, i ( Read more... )

It is almost unhealthy the way that i am totally, completely in love with him.  I cant sleep without him next to me and it makes me mad that i can be sooo incredibly selfish when he tells me that he is going to hang out with his friends for the day.  I cant expect him to waste his Sunday ,while i work all day, sitting around twiddling his thumbs ( Read more... )

he calls me tonight and tells me that he has been waiting for 5 o clock to come all day because he cant wait to see me.   He heard from the police force.  He passed the background check/ investigation and hes on the brink of getting the job of his dreams.   Only the second fitness test stands in his way and he is sooo super scared about it.  im so ( Read more... )

 im officially done at old navy on Thursday!  thank the lord.  i cant deal with that place any more.. i leave there soo fucking angry every single night.  boo ( Read more... )

 im heading up to syracuse in about a half hour.  going to a basketball game with RJJJJJ and then barrss ( Read more... )