made good time getting to CA. found an apt. across the street from a liquor store and down the street from a head shop. Not much graffiti and i haven't seen any bums yet, well, homeless ones anyway. We are the only white people here except for the managers wife who is the epitome of an airhead. Trying to find a roommate for Veronica. Yesterday this ( Read more... )

if i'm just like my dad and he couldn't keep my mom happy then can i keep anyone happy? i couldn't keep my mom happy either, but neither could any of the kids. But i don't do everything i'm supposed to and my dad did and if that isn't good enough then i'll never be good enough. He always paid the bills and worked and put up with her shit and i know ( Read more... )

learning is evolution. it took a certain type of monkey thousands of years to learn to throw rice on the ground into the lake. the rice floats and the sand sinks. the monkey then learned how to teach other monkeys the same thing. people say we haven't evolved in the last however many thousands of years, but i disagree. Thousands of year's ago, hell ( Read more... )

maybe i'm wrong. i haven't heard anything. this is just my very first thought while i was reading an article ( Read more... )

they cut my hair. it's above my ears. veronica didn't recognize me. but i got fed two hot meals and paid over $125 for a days work on "American Dreams". i'm an anti Vietnam protester, the cops drag me away ( Read more... )

the gene pool i came from i think was a consequence of booze and primal instict. Not just me, all my cousins as well. and all my married aunts and unkles disapoint their spouses. they have learned to live with each other, probably forever, they're too old to try something new. i think that's how life is. the woman wants something, the guy doesn't ( Read more... )

up for 41 hours straight, absolutly no sleep. Than i get a good 4 or 5 hours sleep and go to work extras. Finally get to sleep at night, and i'm met with a dream of being with Veronica. We go to some party/club where two couples to a table and all four fuck each other. i don't know how we ended up here, but i really didn't want to stay. She ran off ( Read more... )

priate hells made public ( Read more... )

guess my teacher was sick yesterday, too. no class, i couldn't have been more lucky. i'm still mad i hitchhiked in 2004. every time i think of that guy, i get a weird feeling. everytime i look at the book he left i think disease. i hope i didn't give him my number.

3 pitchers of beer to myself during the superbowl. i barely remember the Patriots won. spend more money than i have, stumble to the bus stop. don't know if i wait long before it comes. get on. too drunk to realize i get off at the wrong stop. the completly wrong stop. probably a good five miles from the apt. so i stick out my thumb and get picked ( Read more... )