I'm sick and tired of people telling me out of the blue that "you're always so serious" and that i should "smile". FUCK OFF. I'll smile when i fucking feel like it, and maybe you have just set that moment further away into the future with your ridiculous comment.

In addition to the amount of food that could be considered decent at this point of the day, i already ate two large candy bars, a banana bread slice and a bottled starbucks frappucino. Food is winning today. Again. I'm getting bigger and bigger. Fatter and fatter ( Read more... )

OMG, just look at this userpic that i just found!!!! This is so adorable!!!!!!

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I'm lonely and sad. Lonely and sad. It's always all the same. It never changes. Why can't i find peace?
My stomach hurts. I feel disgusting and bad. And nobody cares.

Forget all i've written yesterday. I'm still a fat cow and i still want to lose 20 pounds. No more chocolate and desserts.
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Why can't i just live in peace. Why do i have to create artificial drama for myself every freakin' time i've got some free time on my hands?

Sorry. Sorry, sorry, sorry. I'm ugly fat and worthless.

As promised, here are a bunch of pictures i took during my walk. They didn't come out as good as i hoped, but nevertheless - here they are.

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I have just left two ED-related communities. I haven't left the COE communities yet, but i'm considering that as well. I think that reading the posts there is sort of... preventing me from moving on from my disorder. I feel that i'm beyond a stage where i want to rant about my ED experiences and read about other people's binges, purges and ED- ( Read more... )

Lyuba is not coming. Yesss. She called and informed me that she works until 8, and that she will be too tired to drive over here after that. Awesome. She asked if i would like to come for the French movie festival next weekend. I guess i'll inquire with Scott and see if he would like to start his europisation by viewing a french movie, so that he ( Read more... )