Agh + Hanna

[crystal_14]

After last weekend, i have been thinking all week that i don't want to see Lyuba this weekend and go out to a club. Nicole wanted to go see a movie at the Jefferson Theater on the weekend, and i told her that maybe i'll come along, and we agreed that we'll make a plan, and i thought that this will be nice to have a plan to hang out with Nicole,

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[pretex]

I'm going to write down something which might "sound" strange to you but I somehow believe it to be true. I think that there is something mutual and common between you and your friend Lyuba. I think that underneath all the external layers and all the talking, you, both, are somehow a like. Yes I know you might not like this idea but let it "percolate" , think about it and you'll understand. I saw Lyuba's pictures - I'm a person which get impressions out of people on other levels then the external only. I have a quite reliable intuitive sense - I can feel she is a good person, and you, in a way, need her more than you would like to admit. I think she does care for you. I think you aught to share with her your genuine feelings and thoughts and you can go out and do many other tings together than clubbing. I think you see in Lyuba parts of your own personality (yes, yes, don't open your mouth like that...) and vice versa

[crystal_14]

I have no doubt that Lyuba is a good person. But it is very hard to believe that we are alike. We have very little in common. We have different interests, different opinions, different aspirations. The only thing in common between us is that we are both from St.-Petersburg and were raised in somewhat similar ways.

I find it difficult to talk to her genuinely. It probably will sound snobbish and arrogant, but i feel that intellectually we are on different levels. When i'm with her, i feel forced to get down onto her level. I wear a mask for her, a mask of mine that i don't like.

But there must indeed be something alike between us that keeps our relationship going. Sometimes i think that we are so differnt that we compliment each other. She has qualities that i have no trace of and vice versa.

So what's your impression of her beneath the external?..