i get no credit in the straight world

Its so funny to me how i can look back at my last entry and it doesn't even make sense to me. Time heals, really, but i don't understand why sometimes my life feels so tragic. Its not at all... Its embarrassing when I crawl out of the hole and realize i was wallowing in my own self-pity ( Read more... )

Even when i'm happy (and that is alot of the time) i'd still just rather not exist.

It took several people to make me realize that hard work isn't rewarded....its the bending over and taking it up the ass that'll get me treated the way i should ( Read more... )

I'm not the type of person to take everything i am blessed with for granted.....but having a day off to sit back and actually get the chance to appreciate everything i have is more than i can ask for ( Read more... )

i had one thing in this world that i was all mine and I love so much, and that is my cat.

that was until someone decided they wanted to take that one thing from me...

If it was done on purpose, i don't know, all i know is that snatch doesn't feel like MY cat anymore and i miss him.

my lil bro is a married man ....as of yesterday.

The world is an upside down place

I am ready to die. I'm so done with everything. I'm not being stupid and self-pitying. I'm not being ignorant about "the future". I've lived 21 years of my life and i'm not sure i've ever lived two years out of those completely happy ( Read more... )

My parents are meeting my black boyfriend today.

I am nervous.

I wish skin color was a non issue. It should be. Its ridiculous how some things in the world work. I never thought anything like this would be effecting my life.

but it is.

The past two days have been a major growth for me... I'm developing amazing coping skills that still allow me to express my anger ( Read more... )