The gap grows smaller
With each smile
That promises endless thoughts
Chasms of non-words
Fall from hearts
That are melting
With the fire of their being

And i open to a page
And see a memory imprinted
Astonished
I look to see that smile
Telling me
It was a memory that inspired him
To live.

Happy Birthday.
I miss you everyday.
I wouldn't be who i am without you.


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Fighting for sanity ( Read more... )

A little change. More independence.

And i feel stripped.

I feel more vulnerable, more... fragile. I've been left, standing alone, not quite knowing which part of myself to turn to.
I read a book and it says "people are not born to be alone" and i nod yes, yes, yes.
But i feel pathetic - because i'm not alone.

You know that reinvention i was talking ( Read more... )

If i weren't doing a practical based degree... i'd drink soooooo much coffee...

I sit here, strewn in my marshmellow dressing down on this fine public holiday thinking.
Playing softly in the background is the TV, just at the edge of my hearing, playing a show which comforts my past. In front of me, this computer, my present - assignments due far too soon and with too little inspiration. Next to me, a large fat book "Let's Go ( Read more... )

It's time for a re-invention. I can feel it. It burns at the edge of my being, longing to come out of the ether.
And i keep pushing it away until one day i smile.
And it consumes me.

I've been swallowing so many words lately, my brain feels full and heavy, my mouth dry and tasteless ( Read more... )

I'd forgotten how much i loved the simplicity of this poet: William Carlos Williams -

This Is Just to Say

I have eaten
the plums
that were in
the icebox

and which
you were probably
saving
for breakfast

Forgive me
they were delicious
so sweet
and so cold

Diana Gabaldon.
An author i absolutely adore. Her writing is so brilliant.
Hers are epic historical fiction novels. It astounds me just how much research goes into each. Each book takes me ages to read - and it's not because i don't love them, but because the books are so huge to try and carry around!!! LOL.

But the thing that really got me thinking ( Read more... )