Now looking back on it all, it seems like I had learned everything I needed to know about life by the time I was sixteen. The problem was, I somehow forgot it all. Maybe if I could explain it to someone else; capture it all this way, and keep it folded up, filed away in a corner of my mind, I could keep from having to repeat the same mistakes.

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auricleaf: and without you.
auricleaf: im dying.
auricleaf: like it feels like a vast part of myself is gone.
auricleaf: i guess thats love...

...all i wanted was a hug.  and there was no one to give it to me.  fuck.

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It's that place, in the middle, that just puts you in the center of everything, and leaves you right between everything else. It's an odd feeling of extasy and depression. Of love and hate. Of intelligence and idiocracy. At the same time, it's almost beautiful, this rare emotion of tension and confliction of the extremes. Staring blatently into the ( Read more... )

I've heard it said that people come into our lives for a reason, bringing something we must learn.
And we are led to those who help us most to grow, if we let them and we help them in return.
Well, I dont know if I believe that's true.
But I know I'm who I am today, because I knew you.

Like a comet pulled from orbit as it passes a sun.
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I stole this from Miki, and I'm going to cut most of it out, and leave only the parts that I want to...It so properly sums up my KMT experience that I feel like it's just exactly what I mean to say.

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i talked to paul tonight, and prom avec-il seems like a viable option.  he said he would check and see when they were going to the beach, but that he'd go with me if they weren't going to be away ( Read more... )

Today, in my opinion, trumps all other terrible, horrible, no good, very bad days that have come before it.  Yes, today is, quite possibly, THE worst day of my entire life.  Reasons are as follows:
1. I took TWO AP tests today.  Who the FUCK does that, and why...why why why why why.  NOTE TO ALL RISING SENIORS CURRENTLY ENROLLED IN AP GOVERNMENT ( Read more... )

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I got into the Honors program at ONU.  I should be happy, and I am.  I’m very honored and I’m very excited that I got in, because apparently it’s kind of hard, and I don’t feel like I’m very smart etc., so I don’t see why I would get into such a program.  Nevertheless, I got in, and that’s cool.  HOWEVER.  It means I have to live in the Honors ( Read more... )