i cannot beleive how often i think of hurting people. really hurting..i want so badly to type what i think but i cant bear to know that others will see it. i feel like if i dont act on my desires they may never go away. but if i act on my desires i could wind up dead or in jail for the rest of my life. wo is me. sigh. someone scream for me. im to ( Read more... )

i dont understand ( Read more... )

i cant shake this feeling. crazy. angry. sad. angry. its 3:45 am and im surging with adrenaline. i wanna run, rip, skip and fuck. i wanna do something. say something. yell at somebody. theres no one to rip, fuck or scream at. do i go seek strangers? ill have to. i dont want my actions getting back to anyone i know. so strangers.... strange men ( Read more... )

i often think about someone who doesnt think i cared.

i wish they knew how often i think about them.

dont mind if i post songs/vids that date me a tad. im in the mood.

dont mind if i 86 you from my friends list. just means i havent talked to you in years. hell. i havent used this site in years, yet i remembered the password. this is for my own memories and the one or two people who still use it. if you do still use this and would like to kit my email is isitonlove@yahoo.com

hey.
i went thru all my notebooks and most of my lj poems and cant find the one im looking for.
damn. gone with the wind.

so how are you?

hi. i meant to post a bunch of pictures and things. just a shout out, but lj is being a butt, so maybe next time.

Ya know what pisses me off. The commercials for Joe's Crab Shack. Wisconsin doesn't have a Joe's Crab Shack.

Big Fucking Tease

At 3:10 this morning I heard this on the radio:

"From all of us here at ***** . We would love to wish you a very American Christmas.

Ya know, I promised myself I wouldn't post until I had something positive to say ( Read more... )