dear rain ( Read more... )

so today was alright. i randomly woke up freaking out about things..like not having enough money, school, work, relationships,people..and then im like okay today, im not going to eat any junk food im gonna start eating healthy again. and then i fucked that up.. ughh. but i did do pilates today ( Read more... )

yesterday i felt kinda down and i really dont know why, just one of those random moments of sadness..it was wierd..but then after dinner and the whole family thing, i talked to nakita for awhile, and we just talk about different stuff. i love her. the end. :) then i went over to dan's and hung out with everybody. it was fun. and amanda was there ( Read more... )

Switch on the light, between each other
Elevated to your side, Now I'm nervous
It's time to tell you honestly,
so we can alter history...

..something's missing.. :-/

so this one time.. i was happy. all the time. no matter what. and its weird. but i love this. its amazing. me.. not emo. everyone should try this happy thing. its really fun ( Read more... )

People are really good at making me feel good about myself. Its hard to believe half of the things that they say. I just dont think I deserve such kind sweet words. I really dont feel like i'm all that they claim i'm all hyped up to be. but regardless, it makes me smile ( Read more... )

Sometimes, I feel guilty for not being able to make time for people I havnt seen in so long ( Read more... )

1.Do you still talk to the person you lost your virginity to ( Read more... )

so today i woke up to a phonecall by jon saying that him and dan were sleeping in my driveway.. lol and we went to get coughdrops for me cus im still sick oddly enough? its been what.. like a month now. i'm just falling apart. dan pointed out that i have alot of physical problems..like..i dont get periods. im convinced i went through menopause. but ( Read more... )

these next couple of weeks need to go by fast ( Read more... )