i found all the peices of my past and i put them together ( Read more... )

wow. its been forever. um. today i smoked a lot of pot and went to see hippies with taylor AND got in for free. and now im stoned and sleepy and hungry so im gonna take care of that.

so theres stuff.

lots of it.

eating.
stuff.
colin.
my brain.
my heart.
cigarettes.
hate.
stupid stupid stupid stupid STUPID. and thats about it. you dont understand. and thats fine.

whenever i think about staying at wellsprings i just dont really know what to do because...i cant stay for four years ( Read more... )

the amount of humor in my life jsut amazes me sometimes. i think thats why im always laughing. by now, i dont care if evan still likes me...like honestly whatever. but just the pure fact that we ALWAYS end up together and we BOTH know that....thats funny. and the fact that we even bother trying to create that separation ( Read more... )

what do you say when people ask you WHO you are?
now what would you say if you had time to think?

we forget how dangerous it becomes when we become our work, our school, or our hobbies.
dont forget WHO you are. who are you? tell me.
we are all just people. same structure, different souls.

STOP MAKING PROMISES YOU KNOW YOU CANT KEEP. "Nothing will change. I Promise"....thats what you said. lie. lie. I lie. and IM so so sorry for being such a stupid emotional...liar ( Read more... )

so here we go one more fuckin time ( Read more... )

theres like three things id like to be doing right now and these are them:

-having sex
-eating mochi
-watching amelie.

thats all i want.

im incabable of saying anything that will acutally move you.
but i bet once im able to, i could paint it or dance it or show it somehow.
then youd know.

until then, im jsut the way you like me.