this is the first time i have written in like 8 monthes. In that time the person i use to be dies and the person i am now was born. I have become a strong person and i have lived through heartbreak and then thanked God for using it to break me completely apart, because he rebuilt me into what i think is an amazing person. i actually LOVE who i have ( Read more... )

ok so its rilly starting to iiritate and annoy me that gurlz hate me!!!! even good christian girls who i am just like find reasons evidentally to dislike me with a passion....when i have done nothing to them that i know of! i admit it i hang out with guys all the time becuz its hard for me trust gurlz because they always start drama!!! is that a ( Read more... )

i am in love with my God!!!! He is the only person i cannot live without! he has put my heart back together again and has made it like new again! he has filled every void in my life with an unexplainable joy. He has restored my confidence and given me people to lean on during the hardest times! he has blessed and surrounded me with christian ( Read more... )

so life is good again....this time even without des! he has been completely absent from my life for exactly 2 months! sumtimes it has been hell but i am okay now and happy! sumdays are better than others then sumdays i miss him like crazy but i am gunna be great! i am not bitter anymore and i know that God has a purpose for putting me through that ( Read more... )

ok so it has been over two weeks since des left and i haven't seen him for more than five minutes and i have only talked to him for s few minutes every once in awhile! i thought he was going to try harder....but he isn't trying at all seems like!!! and i miss him so much ....i miss him even more on the friend level than nethang else! so basically i ( Read more... )

i have had an amazing weekend!!! friday night me andes went with mell and nick fishing!! we didn't catch a thing...we never do, but it is my favorite thing to do becuz its so laid back and perfect!!! des wants us to get back together...actually he wants me to be his girlfriend but i told him he needed to make sure that was wut he wanted becuz ( Read more... )

ok so last night we all went late night fishin!!! me, reg, des, nick, mell, and her friend.....it was rilly nice to just chill for awhile! i am still so in love with him and i have accepted the fact that that prolly isn't gunna change, at least not anytime soon! we had a wonderful night together but it makes me soo sad cuz we share those times ( Read more... )

i'll admit it as much as i am happy being single again and all the ateention i am getting again! i miss him....he misses me.....we talked today and i was the only gurl in his life and i have not been replaced yet...he knows i have been seeing a new guy and as much as i can tell it makes him sad he knows he can't get upset with me about it! he is ( Read more... )

ok so i was a lil freaked by this new guy he's a lil smothering at times he calls and texts like a million times a day and i hate that cuz i feel smothered....but we went out agIN TONIGHT CUZ HE BUGGED ME TO DEATH ALL DAY!!! but once again it was awesome!!! he picked me up in his mustang and we drove out to the beach and walked and talked in the ( Read more... )

so after wut was by far prolly the worst week of my life as far as jeff dying and fighting with des!!! saturday night i found kitties at cfa and they were the cutest kitties i have EVER seen......me, des, ty, and reg all played with them after work on saturday night and des took one to waffle house with us!!!! it was soo cute to watch him hold her ( Read more... )