maybe i just have bad karma.
maybe i should just be an asshole like everyone else.
they seem to have better lives....

i walked home from the park in the rain. i love the rain. then a few hours later i walked back for finale ( Read more... )

morning. i'm here waiting for my brother to wake up so i can go to the summerfun volunteer thingie. i'm 45 minutes late. oh well... today's the finale thing where all the kids dance infront of their parents. my group is doing 'what dreams are made of' by hillary duff. hAhA ( Read more... )

midnight again. and i dunno. i'm just really... ugh. i want to go to the mall tomorrow and forget about everything that has happened in the past weeks and be completely happy for once. not just half and half. like all out happy. for a day. just a day.

i wish i could truely be like how i want to be, and not give a damn. that's the problem. i actually care about stuff. everything, except for maybe my reputation, which has soooooo gone down the drain. it's not only in the drain, it has reached the freaking ocean ( Read more... )

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yesterday went swell. lol. just kidding, it was fcuking hell. and as always, i fail in my attempts to go to sleep. so as always, i will tell you half of what happened today.. (technically it's what happened yesterday, it's like, 12:22am ( Read more... )

i can't help it anymore. i already made so many damned sacrifices and i get nothing out of it. i actually put myself out for people, jeopardizing my name, making myself look even more like a dumbass. when life seems to be turning to the bright side what i yearn is taken away from sight. ugh. i don't think i know what the hell i'm doing. i think i' ( Read more... )

i don't think anyone reads this anymore. i mean... who wants to listen to a naive 14 year old boy rant on about how he semi-hates his life? and you might think i only give a damned about myself and don't care about the people who have it worse than me. i know about them. kk? all typing these words i spill out is like therapy for me. i let it all ( Read more... )

summer again. i'm working with kindergardeners in a summer fun program. it's volunteer work, and i thought it was gonna be crap, but kids are actually kind of cool. they don't stab you in the back like some people. they are people who live in their own world, so much better than ours. they're sometimes hard to handle, but they're fun ( Read more... )