i remember there was a time when pain could never be eased. the only thing that ever came at ease, was the tears. the tears that have have seemed to the burn through my skin, leaving permanent marks of black and white ( Read more... )

here again. got another hair cut. it looks like, shit, but then, that's about the least of my problems, just a sad inconveniece. i always sink into avoidance of so many people. my insecrities of everyone else make me not want to eat, not want to live, that i may consume myself, and not be apart of anyone. or anything. oh, you're ugly, you're such a ( Read more... )

i think, in a way, we all go through some kind of unique cycle, where we do something repetitively, sometimes good, sometimes bad, sometimes consistently, and other times once in a while through elongated periods of time. and here i go, can't sleep, shot by the most redundant thoughts, and some growing into so much of a problem, they scar my mind ( Read more... )

today was cool i guess. technically it was yesterday, tis about 12:30 am. i went to school, there was an assembly. then after school alyssa, lauren, and i hit starbucks. that led to some bizarre conversation about the talent show and reciting poetry with a bongo. i'm thinking.. great idea ( Read more... )

kays. so week two is over with ( Read more... )

so i'm here. trying to do my biology homework, yet appearing idle as to stare at the computer screen, listening to music, doing.. nothing. i was talking to a friend, and she helped me figure out that i'm not over all of that bad stuff that happened over the summer, and even before the summer actually. i mean, the jim thing, it was like, 'what ever ( Read more... )

i can't go to sleep and i have school tomorrow. plus, my dad is watching the filipino channel. so that dosen't help ( Read more... )

oh dear summer, parting is such sweet sorrow, for dreaded school.... is starting tomorrow ( Read more... )

i feel like an asshole, typing all of this. because i complain so much. the only people who have true reason to complain about there living conditions and life.. are starving children in ethiopia ( Read more... )

and i'm on my way to allison's house ( Read more... )