i should be more careful when i look through old pictures. i really should just delete some and get some people out of my life completely..i think i'm afraid? there's a sense of comfort there still despite everything and full well knowing i don't deserve anything.

what am i doing.

i'm grated away to the bone. i dont care any more. i'm going  through the motions. i really truly have no idea what i really want. i think nothing sounds marvolous right now. just leave me alone. i'm a train wreck. i'm a train. i'll run over you. its too easy. maybe thats my problem. there's no challenge. no one challenges me. no one is interesting ( Read more... )

i have no pulse. im reckless and a danger to any man i might love. push and pull is one of my favorite games to play. i did it before. i'm doing it again. and they put up with me. i dont know why ( Read more... )

i'm done. you may as well delete me from everything and throw everything away. i am completely writing you off and getting rid of you in every aspect of my life. i'm done. im done with the songs that remind me of you. i'm done with your friends. i'm done with trying to befriend you when you dont answer. i'm done with your pictures. fuck it. i'm ( Read more... )

oh my god. living in the house has become fucking ridiculous. monica put shit in tiff's shampoo and tiff freaked out. threatened to call hazing and put every one on social probation. what the fuck? its shampoo. can we be any more dramatic? all of the fucking cattiness, and drama and unnecessary shit is stupid. i'm done with it. two hours last night ( Read more... )

susie sorority pisses me off and annoys me to no end. susie sorority is the girl who obsesses about every detail of the organization, has her nose in people's business, has an opinion about EVERYTHING, is wayy to enthusiastic about being a part, and is ridiculous about her little. fuck off susie sorority. take a valium. calm down.

i am sick of ( Read more... )

so i was with jon a while ago and he pulls up a website for some campus girls calendar. he knows a couple of people who are trying to make it..whatever..he pulls up a picture of this petite, platinum blonde girl, turns to me and goes "hot"...i just stood there dumbfounded like "uh.."   then i managed to mutter "that makes me feel bad about my self ( Read more... )

god i want to walk over to jon's right now and be like "here's your shorts and here's your t-shirt. dont ever call me again ( Read more... )

here it goes...yeah, i'm gonna start writing here again. i dont think anyone else does anymore..not since the last time i checked. whatev ( Read more... )

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