After awhile you learn the subtle difference ( Read more... )

I can't believe how my mom is such a bitch. Her and chelsie stopped by here yesterday so that she could give me some mail and apparently mom got pissed becuase I didn't run over to her car and talk to her. I didn't want to talk to her. I have no desire to talk to her what so ever. Well when chelsie got in the car mom told her that she was going to ( Read more... )

Matthew has made his choice. It's a good thing too. We were walking to walmart yesterday, pretty much for the hell of it and he said on the way there that he wanted to tie up his loose ends before we went. And like a dummie I asked him "before we go where??" and then he reminded me. Well anyway then this morning Gordon, Matt's dad gets a phone call ( Read more... )

Okay I haven't written in a while but alot has happened. I was talking to Dad and Debbie the other day. Debbie was telling me about how she can get Matthew a Job working for a company down there making $13 an hour driving truck. Then I can get on whith Access Alaska and help my Grandma out everyday for $12. But the only problem is that we would ( Read more... )

I never knew how good life could be when you find the right people to be with. I know that sounds kind of wierd but it's true. Since Devon has been born so much has gone on between my mother and I. And now we don't talk. But even through all that shit with her I have found a new family and new friends. I don't know what I would have done without ( Read more... )

Last night Matthew, Devon and I were lying on the floor in our room and Devon looked at me and I swear to god he said "mom"!!!!! I can't beleive he's only two months old and already and forming words!!! I have a feeling that he's going to be crawling here soon too he's already rolling himself over. It's amazing to watch him grow and become ( Read more... )

God it feels like I haven't written in here forever!!! I don't even know if people still have me on thier lists. It's kinda wierd where my life has taken me. I have changed soo much. I have to admit something. I know that people in high school thought that I was a fake and wierd and all that stuff. They were right. People are going to hate me and ( Read more... )

Wierd isn't it??? How you want to be anywhere but where you are??? And then when you get to that someplace else you don't feel any different. I just feel out of place. Like I should be doing something else....Grrrr
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Oooofffff, it's been a long day. I haven't done a damn thing but I am soo tired!!! I hate that. I feel so lazy. This morning was kind of exciting for Chelse though she got to feel Zane kick. She got all bouncy and all that stuff. I don't know it's just getting kind of old for me ( Read more... )

Hello....what is this place??? Is this something that I am supposed to remeber??? Oh, now I know!!!! This is where all the people that I knew in high school come and write to keep themselves sane!!! Man am I in trouble with myself then!!!! I haven't been able to write my thoughts for about five months!!!! No wonder I feel like I am going crazy!!!! ( Read more... )