Whos afraid of the big bad test? the big bad test? the big bad test? whos afraid of the big bad test? NOT ME NOT ME NOT ME.

I knew everything on my philosophy test and thats enough to make me smile for two days. Now, I think I'll treat myself to a sandwhich with fried food on it. ya'll have a nice day.

Yeah I saw viv today and we were talking about how the happy pills are working. With everything I was like, "Ok." Nothing bothered me today. Its amazing. I took a final yesterday. I took one today. I have one tomorrow and I have not freaked out once. I studied, I did the best I could and I'm getting last minute stuff done before I go to ( Read more... )

i dont know where to start. I guess with four in the morning. I woke up after three hours of sleep because my thoughts were so loud. I took a xanax to calm me and allow me to sleep. Didnt work. Dozed off for ten minutes woke up at Five with pains in my upper abdomenan and back. Took deep breaths and fell asleep. Woke up at my alarm in ( Read more... )

Ieri sera la mia sorrella e Io andato a la camera de emergencia a il Hospital de Montefiore. Avuto un' attaco di panico e la mia sorrella bisogne per me avere la medicina. Sono bene ma oggi devo andare a il dottore perche il dottoressa nel hospital no auite me. Fine.

State bene.

spent the entire day in tarrytown yesterday. after patrick and I woke up we went to the eldorado in tarrytown and ate. Then I went to my therapy appointment and she asked me your basic therapist questions. Dad? Mom? and after I complained that I had not originally wanted to go back into therapy she said "You father was an abusiva alcoholic and ( Read more... )

anxiety beyond comprehension. its at the point where its not just internal i.e stomach aches and bladder irritation. My face has exploded. Theres no writing it down. no one understands because whether we like it or not there are things that we feel that other people dont and theres no way to articulate those feelings. we all get messed up but ( Read more... )

I went on a fordham retreat this weekend. I went on the same one last year, its called emmaus. (remember "dont shit on my emmaus?") Well last year i left the retreat feeling enlightened from the entire experience because I had gotten back in touch with my faith and with God. I considered it one of the most valuable experiences I ever had but ( Read more... )

ok i rarely get dressed for let alone put makeup on for class but every now and then u have to not look like such a shlep for ur own self esteem. So Im wearing this long sleeve black dress i got in american apparell, purple footless tights, converse hightops w. hearts all over them, and my moms long necklace. so yeah toooo indie and since none of ( Read more... )

i dont want to say the D word but its just the truth. Lately I've been so depressed its rediculous. Its not even confused, alone, marymount depression. its wandering aimlessly in the bronx depression. I have nothing together. Im not succeeding in my classes which makes me feel incapable and even though that doesnt sound so bad, when it goes on ( Read more... )

Lets all take note of the time shall we? 7:56 am. Thats not that bad though. I'm wide awak considering I have been up since 5:30 because there is no way I do not have another bladder infection. Last time they told me it was because of sexual activity but I have to say Patrick is not toxic, if anything another person in my past was, and thats ( Read more... )