things are so bad. i don't know how i always manage to do this. i think i should disappear for a little while before i lose everyone
hey march 3rd, i want my life back

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august 14th, 2003
7.1
february 9th, 2005
6.6

i dont think i should do winter quarter anymore

i shouldn't be drinking right now. i also shouldn't be having a party tonight, and i don't want to, and i shouldn't be going out tonight, and i don't really want to do that either. i should do work but really i think i should just take a lot of clonopin and go to sleep because i can't really deal with consciousness right now at all

hey panic, what's up? you know, i wouldn't mind if you took a little trip for a little while. a little vacation? think about it.

today was bad, tonight was good, i love arts & crafts, i love sulin, things'll be okay? maybe the last one is a stretch. but i always get through. but i'm thinking maybe i shouldn't keep counting on that.

"one time is okay, two, all right, okay, but a third time, how does she keep getting herself into this, is she an idiot?"

"you know, i'm just like, damn woman whats wrong with you??"

yeah, i mean, she must be an idiot.

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i really wish i was going to lobby day

so last night i kept thinking how i always forget how quickly things spiral out of control, how quickly things go from practically perfect to shit. i was thinking that maybe things can't be good for more than like a month ( Read more... )

so on saturday night i went to a party at my friend sulin's house where we all got drunk and then coopted the living room where her lame roommate's lame friends were, and then had a dance party and got more drunk.

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